Despair is the feeling

the world has stolen something

from you that was yours

and you get this hole

in your being

that can’t be filled

by the most sincere smiles

and somewhere in there

you want to be the victim

because then you mean something,

because then you

are not to blame,

if only they could

stare into your eyes

and see your hollow screaming,

then maybe something

would be done,

maybe the universe

would grant you one wish

-if only you realized

how transient all

things ultimately are